Its even more hard work and it gets worse

My very gullible thinking about how life would be after publishing– demolished

My support team– shaky but decent (thanks to coworkers and friends)

My confidence– nervous but still excited

Drama with every day– constant

What can I say? Rainbows and unicorns who pooped glitter and smiles in my direction isn’t the actual real life. My journey, like others that have ventured in the much bow down, amazing life of a writer, artist, or anything that doesn’t guarantee a paycheck from Wal-Mart, is a hard one. I imagined rubbing elbows with Stephen King and seeing my book in the arms of strangers and famous people.

“WOW. THIS BOOK IS AMAZEBALLS AND WE WILL MAKE A MOVIE!!”

Well that was a dream of some sorts, when I probably did crack while eating thirty cheeseburgers and drinking shots of Goldschlager (had to look it up to spell)…

But like all imaginary drunken dreams its far from it. Now with family drama like a plaque and dealing with emotions that are neither pretty or fun, I have to carry on. Like life we all face those crazy aspects of “am I ok?” Are we? I think we all question that. I think the more we treat someone like shit under our shoes the more we question it. But as a writer with confidence issues, I think we can all agree on this, the more drama the more we wonder.

What would our characters do? Hmm I guess it depends on which one, right?

But really to get to the serious talk and this is about a journey of a writer, the journey is never over. After publishing, there is still a lot of work, still a lot of keeping sane, keeping promises and keep writing. Keep your head up, keep those dreams alive, keep hustling!!

We are all in the same space and most of us have those demons. But like Sam and Dean in supernatural battling every week until next year (sad feelings) , all we need is the angel blade and a good burger… oh and an angel named Castiel and someone calling everyone “IDJITS”….. So to conclude this strange yet interesting topic of yet another part of my journey ……..we are going to be ok. If you don’t think you will be then I give you this…… they have oreos in stores, burgers with peanut butter and ice cream. They have ice cream… we will be ok… if you are on some kind of Keto diet– Bacon– they have BACON.

 

Thank you for listening to my rant and Good day!

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Working hard and trying for next level

So I have been working on my short stories, posting on social media and trying to get the word out. I feel frustrated by how my book is not getting the attention it deserves. I am hearing it is a great book, some small errors in the editing but all in all the story is solid. So what am I doing wrong?

I know this is a journey and the journey is filled with ups and downs but the downs suck immensely. I am not the most popular, I am a little awkward in social situations and when people ask about my book, I get so giddy still that I cant remember what my book is about. I have however explained my book several different ways that I wonder if people aren’t wondering “does she have more then one book out?”

So I wonder, if I was someone that was popular, you know the person you just have to know, would I do better? Am I killing my book?

Is it my fault that my characters look up at me and say, “thanks a lot loser!!!”

So I moved around a lot, I don’t trust some people, I alienate some people, I have made wrong decisions, I judge, I am not skinny and blond or beautiful. I don’t hang as much, I am older and I have children. With all my faults, I feel that my book shouldn’t be ostracized because of me!! In terms that we can pun about it…. Don’t judge a book by its writer!!!

So what to do? I work hard, I write another and another and another. Isn’t that my dream? To be a writer, I must write…. Isn’t that what I am doing? So I don’t give up, I prove my writing is amazing and when I am older, greyer and wiser– well sort of- I shall have a hundred dollars in my saving, my name is spoken a least on 20 peoples lips that don’t know me at all and I can go have dinner at red lobster by myself with said 100 dollars, then I have no savings……… hmmm

Well journey of no… what I do know is that I will never give up. I will never falter and I will get better at this editing thing… I promise!!

 

 

Back from the dead and a most welcome book!!

So Please forgive me from not being social lately, the flu has convinced me that the zombie apocalypse is for real. I am still in need of a nebulizer but at least I can now successfully get out of bed, without feeling like I can pass out. So now that I am back from “the dead” I am sitting here at the regular spot, trying to catch up on so much lost time. I thought writing short stories would be simple, I mean we as writers have all these little stories that get stock piled up there somewhere. In a cavern or tunnel, hidden in the depths of the psychopaths locked door, just in reach of a computer and endless hours we don’t have.

Speaking of endless hours, I don’t have. One of my coworkers had said to me, as he noticed my book at my desk. “Where did you find the time, to write a book, how did you have time?” The easy and the hard answer is I had to make time. Like anything that is important and worth doing and amazing, you have to work around that schedule. I am thankful that I have such a great support system and a day off. I take have of that day and write at the coffee shop. I get myself out of the element of chores, calls, tv and anything that takes me a way from the writing.

Now that doesn’t mean I don’t get distracted by social media, but to make this work, its necessary

. Without that, I would be publishing with no attention, and I want my baby to get that attention, it deserves.

Anyway so back to the short story problem. My first book I have had in my heart since I was young. An amazing story about vampires and love and hate and a curse, all is great. RIGHT? Then all the years I didn’t get down to writing, vampires blew the heck up. I mean in the 80s and 90s they were there but then everyone made a movie or book about vampires. The more I saw the more I swore and kicked and pulled a tantrum, but I knew in my heart, that my story had something different that no other story had, so the excitement was real.

So it was easy to write the story and finish it. (excluding the second story and so on). But now,  I am in the waters of unknown imagination, stories that have not all been written. New stories that I have to unleash so then I can get something out there and then return to Thea and Blake.

So now I am better, I have some cool pictures to share. One is a kid that stole my book from her mother and my own book that my son and I are holding.. Yes I was sick when I took the pic, but oh well!!

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New Look!!

So after attention to detail and a revamp, the book is finally ready!! So now that the book has been out for almost a month, I noticed a trend.

The attention of the book goes like this…..

First Close Family

then coworkers who are hyped up about hearing about your book

Friends

and then the books you buy yourself for kids and parents and my nieces and nephew. The rest is the scary part….. Are you doing enough?

Are you telling stranger? Twitting, face booking, word of mouth, Instagram blah blah

It is A LOT of work….. is it worth it? Yes most definitely yes. I am tirelessly twitting and liking and responding but the most amazing things come from this. You find out that there are others like you WOW….. New authors that are trying to get the word out. I get to read other peoples work, encourage other writers and enjoy different perspectives and difficulties and journeys. It is well worth it. It is always worth it when I can add to my own collection of books. Not like I don’t already have a lot of books….

Well and besides doing all that, working the full time job and any other personal responsibilities I have, which is a lot, I need to get another book out.

So here is the link to my book, the picture of my pretty baby is there as well..

 

 

Have a Great Day!!

Writing with coffee: is it the new dangerous?

So I do not claim to be the nicest person, I know, I can be mediocre in regard to humanity. I know I joke about my characters, which don’t we all, when we aren’t writing about romantic bliss and guy gets the girl. But even then, don’t we put them in turmoil anyway? I mean its not like we give them the instant gratification of just getting what they want.. Not even Mr. Rodgers, who was all about facing the real problems and situations. Books would be boring then.. (Yes I watched the documentary, very tearful.. LOVE YOU MR. RODGER!!)

But I guess I don’t feel that bad because I know that there are a collection of people and categories for them.

Normal people

Writers

Serial Killers with no talent

See, we are just step above the serial Killers but with a touch of talent, sometimes not much but some. What if Ted Bundy was a writer? BEST HORROR NOVEL EVER!!!!

Well probably not but isn’t that how we feel sometimes? Well I guess I should face the day and pray that the muse’s are on my side.

Have A Great Day!!

 

 

My continued adventure

So Book- written and published, whats next. Promote Promote Promote. Family Friends Strangers… So what that means is— the hope that you don’t annoy people enough or the hope that you do annoy people enough to look at your books.

Follow you on Instagram, Facebook, word press, and twitter. Buy the book and then want to buy another. Reach out to the public life newspapers and tv. Shows like Ellen (Yes I email her every day)

Whats next? Continue with master plan of annoyance and start a new project. So today I am starting a new project, a short story collection. Then while working on that project, continue the story of Thea and Blake. Pray people still are planning on buying the book and reading on kindle. Trying not to give up since the hard work is just beginning.

This month I get to buy my own book and for certain family so they have their own. On this adventure I note a few things, sometimes and I say sometimes, family doesn’t support you as much as coworkers or friends. Its frustrating and sometimes disheartening but the overwhelming love you get from those who truly support you is amazing. Like my editor ie my sister Jade is the one who shared and rooted me on in a big way. She is someone you want in your life as you see those who should support you and don’t or not as much.

I hope in anything you all do you have that person in your life. Well my faithful and small but mighty followers,  hope you check out my book as well, and I hope you have a great Superbowl, whoever you root for.. commercials and all!!

 

Love your adoring writer and biggest fan

sleepless self publishing syndrome

This should be a real syndrome, almost like a disability that is newly formed because of the large amount of post published Authors falling asleep at their desk jobs. I thought creating, editing, finding a way to publish the book and then not self destructing as i know people are reading my book, was hard. NOPE. Promoting, stalking, dodging the arms of people that are swatting me to go away after I delightfully jump up and down after another AMAZING person shares my book. Tirelessly working to get the word out so that my following will get excited for the 2nd and so on book.

Now the only advise I would have is make sure the finished project matches what will be sent to your favorite people. As I delightfully flipped thru an actual book with my name on it- I saw a paragraph and then soooo much space until the next sentence.

I don’t know if that would have made a difference honestly but still, it almost broke my heart to see the hard work have a crappy break. But no one seemed to care, the story was what people looked forward to. My coworkers and some of my family all have been amazing. I just hoping to reach the people I don’t know. Take a chance on my book, I scream.

So ending this rant, good day, good afternoon and good nite!!

Pure Amazeballs satisfying holy cowing

So since I finally got the nerve to self publish it has been unreal, the moment I can call myself a published writer. The moment that I see my name on a book cover. I grew up with nothing and now I am on to something. Now I am standing at a level of success, whether large or small that I have finally began.

Agent or no agent / publisher or no publisher/ deny deny deny deny…. why? Cause of a title that feels over played– well I believed in my book so much, the title, though common was just the premise of something unique and different.

I feel, no matter why the denials, never heard “its HORRIBLE” “Why would you show me such crap” My eyes are burning from such crap that at least I dont have to look at the abomination that you call writing.”

Maybe agents are like ex employees.. Maybe they cant say its horrible, but its not the right fit.

But I knew better. I believed in myself and that’s what mattered. My story has comedy, gore, surprise, suspense and most of all just a good story.

But yet agents do get lots of stories and so why not self publish– well to self publish, you have to get out there– (WHAT I HAVE TO SOCIALIZE!!!!!!)

You have to trust that a program you decide to use wont mess up your baby.

You have to have a following- people who are as excited as you are– friends, coworkers, family. Even strangers that you meet at sprint that “seem” interested.. But it could’ve been a sales ploy… I really love our new tablet, phone, speaker, Bluetooth headset and gift cards to all my cousins, mothers, brothers, fathers, sisters neighbors in a five mile radius.

So I guess what I would say is YES we see shows with hollywood happy ending but real life isnt so bad.

Truly Truly after school special– deal with it.. HAHAHAHA