Any future endeavors or what?

Being a writer is like a nightmare sometimes. A very repetitive nightmare that you just can’t get out of. Can’t seem to control and you always wonder, if you realize that you are in a nightmare, are you going to wake up from it ever. Now before the nightmare, before you went to sleep, you had the best intimacy in years, you just won the lottery and your bed is so comfortable that your son tries to sleep in it all the time. I think that all that is like actual writing. When you are writing something that just flows.

Editing (which if you read my blog, you all know how I feel), waiting, figuring out if I am a one-trick pony, all that in between bullshit is the nightmare. But I think above all of it, the worst nightmare. The kind of nightmare that wakes you up in screams and sweats is the type that you don’t have time to write. Between life and more life, personal and work-related, sometimes you are short on time. I am the so many that depend on 1 or 2 jobs to make it by. A single mother that is trying to make it and then a son that needs me more than I sometimes know what to do with. Between medical appointments and therapy, and different meds, it’s a tiring life.

I am thankful for the support I have now. If it wasn’t for so many people that have been amazing, including my son, I would be struggling. I am blessed with a very amazing group of friends, family, and a partner that keeps me sane. I hope for everyone reading this, that you have some semblance of blessing. I hope that you all are getting what you need from the people in your life.

But until then- you know what you need to do

Till we meet again…. Stay creative

How to begin. Again. And again…. and again?

A continuation of something… is not as easy as I thought. A plan , an idea, characters, why would someone continue this story…. I am literally asking. Why would a person put so much stress in their life……

Not only do you worry about the public but your own opinion.  I mean if your characters aren’t behaving and choose to not care. They chose to go from the nice old lady to the gta bad ass and shoot down a couple people.

Characters can take on their own personality but what if their personality sucks? What if you have a bunch of Karen’s or a bunch of hitlers???

Annoying people who run amuck causing unnecessary drama….

Thank God that I have my God button called the delete button. Baaaaaaa haaaaaa

But back to the continuation of a story..sequel of the original story. In my annoying case the story was supposed to be …..beginning middle and then the end. Thankfully with maturity,  lots of movies and my own opinions I didn’t want the simple….life isn’t simple..

Well after I do research on some things and work on a couple family tree stuff let the 2nd book begin…

Another Book, I say

All is said and not done or never done, I think

After completing a book or two or maybe three, I expect to write more. It’s a need and a want. But whether it’s fear of continuing on perfectly or other book ideas, it can be difficult. Ideas are not the issue, it’s the fear for me. The fear, I can get over, I know but still fear anyway. Anyone can get over the fear, but it doesn’t mean that it doesn’t keep us from doing something right away. I am excited about writing the next book and that means finding a publisher, then its fear of rejection…. our oldest and meanest of friends.

I am hoping after advertisement, some ok sales, a somewhat known circle of amazing buyers, and other stuff that I have come far enough to get attention from someone that wants my books. I will try when I am ready and that is when I start writing and finish chapters. So wish me luck,,,, I will need it.

Porch thieves and conspiracy??

So exciting news has finally come to light… My second book is now ready to be live, whether I am ready or not…

I finished my book on both the Amazon and Barnes and Nobles platforms. I received my first book to approve the cover.. made changes, received it again, and done… Perfection as it can be without someone professional. But then I approved the book at the other platform and I was waiting, not so patiently for the book to come in… guess what???

I was gone that day and I received notification that it came in a few hours before I would get home…… Well, I came home and no package….. NOOOOOOOOOOO.

I knew that cover was going to be fine but because it wasn’t in my hands, I of course was nervous– especially since my first book was such a cluster mess, of not-so-nice adventures and learning curbs…

So I took this as another learning curb– Funny story, horrible porch thieves but I figured… if someone has my book,,, maybe just maybe a stranger will finally buy my book. Right!! Amazon refunded my money, which was great but all in all, I am ok with someone stealing my book… Doesn’t that mean that in a weird way it was worth something?

Hmmmmm

I am a big believer that if someone steals something of mine, then they needed it more than me. Now that doesn’t mean that stealing is ok and yes it still sucks but HEY I hope whoever steals it, actually reads it and goes “wow, a really good book.” Now if karma can just play her part and have its way with their salad and give them a case of the stomach blues for stealing my book… I know I know, I shouldn’t think that way. But I am a writer and well we write characters in worse dilemmas.

But anyway… All of my links are at the bottom and I hope that a stranger, whoever you are, buys my short storybook, and my first book and you get it safe and sound.

By the way, this is a true story and the conspiracy is…. did I just do this to promote my book???

No otherwise I would have thought of something like that for my first book

Barnes and nobles

The Love of a vampire

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Amazon

The Love of a Vampire and Stories to keep you warm at night

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The journey so far

I wish there was a way to see into the future to have a moment of what happens with my choices that I make. A glimpse that would tell me if I made a choice that would be right or wrong. I think we all have that wish. Or maybe we don’t. Its like knowing our death day. Knowing what would happen could possibly change my choice, thus changing the future, thus changing the outcome.

Did my cover turn out well?

Was the book a success?

Did I feel good my book?

How many do I end up writing?

Did I ever get published?

Those questions definitely would be in my top 500, besides the questions like, did I raise a bunch of jerks? Are my friends actual sociopath’s? Does Adam Cole become president?(please no)

But really and truly, the journey so far has been an interesting one. Triumph, tears, screams, anger, elation, worry, and other emotions that I think are illegal in 50 states. But the one thing I could say about my journey is I would do it all again. Maybe change a few things about the journey that should have been different but ultimately stay the same.

update

I am finishing my short story book. It is about 14 stories of interesting outcomes, ones that most of my characters probably wished that they had a small glimpse to the future. But they all have to find out the hard way on living their life.

Till we meet again…. Stay creative

Again and again and again…?

What would you say if you were stuck in a loop of some sort? What if you feel this sense of deja vu about something you already did?

Well if your any kind of frustrated writer… (i dont know about artists…. recreating a painting would be annoying)…. sometimes you have to rewrite your baby… Your prized pig. Your first born that you have waited years to see in bloom. The embaressement, the frustration, the anger ….. all that just because you rushed or wasnt careful who you trusted…..

But the good news is….. its finally done. Its out there like a beautiful piece of work. This blog was probably written already—- thus the groundhog whine, but its done. Your first book, finished and pretty is out there.

and boy is it pretty.

Sales are not pretty…. I need those to be the successful writer but even though the money would be nice at this point….. it is not that easy… I cant just climb into the writer ring and take the gold…. God no.

I have to work hard for it…..

I call this the stranger chapter….. Friends and family will possibly buy the book— what we need is that stranger or strangers. Without that that loop will be ever repeating.

But my theory will be write the first book— check

Write the second book

Write the third book

Find publisher

Breakthru

We shall see…………..

Well it has been a blast…. yet again but gotta keep going.

Till we meet again.. Keep being creative.

Professional help indeed…. aaarrg

I will admit (with head hung low) that sometimes necessary assistance is … well necessary. Between friends and family sometimes outside help is needed. Usually with a program or format or whatever it is.

We have to take the high road, pull up our big girly or boy panties and go get that help… Unfortunately that sometimes means paying some out of pocket monies. But if you come so close to a project, you do whatever is necessary to make it happen….

This is why most of us have that full time job ………

This is a quick blog but I’m in the middle of working on my short story project…… so

Till we meet again… Keep being creative.

I’ll take a water with a side of apology, please!

Who said that writers have patience, literally no one. I’ll even say that anyone who is out there with their passion have little to no patience for waiting. We try, and obviously we have to have patience to get through our creative messes. But I’m talking about the people that are on our side, helping us make the good stuff come to life.

Those that help us whether friends, family, coworkers, strangers… anyone that we have to wait on to finish their part…

So right up front from all us of…… I am so so sorry.

Our rush or lack of patience for you to get your part done, can seem rude. It is not always the case. Its more like the excitement of taking your brand new, first time owned car and they are trying to fix the bridge that killed hundreds when it collapsed. Necessary fixes, annoyances but necessary fixes and repairs…

Does it make us any less dicks screaming profanities and other stupid stuff to those hard working people, no. But that is the stuff that make us humans, bad ones but still humans. I hope I am not that bad but I know that I have probably offended someone from a text or two when I didn’t have the best patience as a good little writer should have.

So for those of you that have wished for my death or ghosted me cause i smell weird, I appreciate what you guys do. You make my dreams come to life and while helping you with yours… Save the haunting for after death and that one politician that drove us all crazy… you know who you are.

Till we meet again… Keep being creative!!

Nothing going on except everything

Writing as a writer is far and few… except when your in the middle of your project— ie your book. So really for me at least, I like to finish one project at a time. Now that means, I write something then I research, edit, research, edit, correct, format, CRY… but as soon as I am done editing and getting it out there, I work on the next project. I think its important to concentrate on the project rather then, working on project and doing the small stuff for another project. I feel that my projects are like jealous relationships… if I would look at another project I would get an evil look from my project…

Now obviously things weren’t as perfect as what I thought it would be. My first book and I jumped the gun.. I know this… I made some bad decisions, worse decisions and some questionable decisions. But ultimately it is ok. Its out there and bad or good its out there.

So short blog or not.. Ive got some editing to do… of course..

Till we meet again.. Keep being Creative